Lost In Beauty-

Sunday

Exhausted, I have never felt so completely washed out in my whole life. It wasn't particularly insane but the time factor is really keeping me away from everything, from doing anything I wanna do. Well, i guessed that's part of life. My first job deprived me of my own personal time, alot. Things are not at the worst right now, it might be getting worse from next week onwards cos by then, I'll have to sacrifice my weekends for work. Monday will be my only off day, provided that I have no appointment on that day. But on a brighter note, I love my job and am happy with what I am doing right now. Perhaps that's why I'm willing to part with my own personal time in exchange for this job. That's some elements in this job which I can't exactly say but I know it's something which actually make me look forward to. Anyway, my last CMFAS exam yesterday, I cleared all 3 on my first attempt!!! Woohoo!!

I was more relieved and tired yesterday than excited over the passing of my M5. That's partly because I didn't really have time for M5. A sad thing to say, Dear's grandma has passed on, on the 15th August. It was a predicted but sudden event. I attended the short wake and the crematory session and all. It was depressing and I was a little devastated over it but somehow, I managed to convince myself that she's going to somewhere better partly cos of her religion. I still feel sad when I think of how I had promised to treat her and even showed her my graduation photos 2 weeks ago but now.. Auntie was taking it quite hard and we are spending our time with her and pulling her through. Yah, anyway back to M5, that's part of the reasons why I was so tired. I had to squeeze in time after training and M5 gotta wait till late in the night, and often, I was nodding my head off while reading.

Sigh. *Feeling grieved*

the beauty exposed ;