Lost In Beauty-

Sunday

Exhausted, I have never felt so completely washed out in my whole life. It wasn't particularly insane but the time factor is really keeping me away from everything, from doing anything I wanna do. Well, i guessed that's part of life. My first job deprived me of my own personal time, alot. Things are not at the worst right now, it might be getting worse from next week onwards cos by then, I'll have to sacrifice my weekends for work. Monday will be my only off day, provided that I have no appointment on that day. But on a brighter note, I love my job and am happy with what I am doing right now. Perhaps that's why I'm willing to part with my own personal time in exchange for this job. That's some elements in this job which I can't exactly say but I know it's something which actually make me look forward to. Anyway, my last CMFAS exam yesterday, I cleared all 3 on my first attempt!!! Woohoo!!

I was more relieved and tired yesterday than excited over the passing of my M5. That's partly because I didn't really have time for M5. A sad thing to say, Dear's grandma has passed on, on the 15th August. It was a predicted but sudden event. I attended the short wake and the crematory session and all. It was depressing and I was a little devastated over it but somehow, I managed to convince myself that she's going to somewhere better partly cos of her religion. I still feel sad when I think of how I had promised to treat her and even showed her my graduation photos 2 weeks ago but now.. Auntie was taking it quite hard and we are spending our time with her and pulling her through. Yah, anyway back to M5, that's part of the reasons why I was so tired. I had to squeeze in time after training and M5 gotta wait till late in the night, and often, I was nodding my head off while reading.

Sigh. *Feeling grieved*

the beauty exposed ;

Been a hell for the past 2 weeks. Super late nights, early morning work, in between tissues and coughing non-stop, this battle with the flu (for 2 weeks, 2 times to the doctor) and the books were totally insane! I was on the verge of losing but my determination managed to pull me through this "mini crisis". The duel with the time factor is really driving me nuts and the steep learning curve is pushing me to my limits. But my time and effort did bear me the "fruits-of-labour", I passed both my M9 and HI in the CMFAS, my first try! One more week to go though, M5 is coming up next Saturday. Although not as super-thick as the textbooks compared with M9 and HI, it requires much time and effort. Sulk. Both Saturdays were burnt on exam and whatever little time we had left during the weekdays after work had to be utilised wisely, and even during lunchbreaks. Our training had been intensive but of course, it bonded us. Anyway, the training has reached its peak and soon we will be having our FIT assessment in the week after M5 and upon passing the assessment, together with all the CMFAS exam, we will be heading into the next tough phase.

But for now, I have my short-term "goals" to make me look forward to. The promise to attack every single shop with Joanna and Gisele. And the class had planned alot of "after-exam, before-we-get-busy" outings. These are just some stuffs to spur me on. I've been physically and mentally strained but really, it's an achievement. I'm happy with what I am now although I would like to have more time for my friends.

Zinmar is back! Supposed to have a dinner with yy and zin but I was having a really bad flu the whole week. The doctor scolded me on my 2nd visit cos he couldn't issue me MC (I told him I can't afford to miss lessons) and I hadn't been resting at all. But anyway, that aside, I looked forward to catching up with them soon!

Update more soon, if I can. One drama episode I wanted to say. Next time then.

the beauty exposed ;