Lost In Beauty-

Saturday

I was in a quite terrible mood that day. I dunno if it was a fault at all for not telling or announcing how my much my dear Andrew means to me. Probably it was my fault. But to me, relationship is something I shld be proud of, and definitely, I am proud of Andrew, not because I'm biased towards him, just that I seriously felt so. However, I feel that it is the genuine feelings among us that's crucial, not how I put all these feelings into words for announcement so that people know. Probably some just think I am not bothered by it at all, that's why they never care as much about what they say. But I do, I seriously do and I'm proud of my dear Andrew for being so magnanimous.

He will do anything and everything for me, without any 埋怨. He's always there for me. His feelings are actually a magnified version of my own. When I'm 100% happy, he's 200% overjoyed and when I'm 100% upset, he's 300% down. 300% meaning he'll always be so generous to share more of my woes than my happiness. His matured and logical thinking didn't actually put me in a biased position, his words simply set me thinking, guiding me with his advise and leaving me to make the final decision of everything myself, at the same time making sure he's not the one influencing me. He respected how I feel and we always try not influence each other's point of view. His sacrifices for me are so clear that I thought everyone can visualize. I simply love him so much and the truth is I felt guilty cos for all that he had done for me, I still want him to please everybody else. That's just plain selfish of me, really, even to the extent of changing or curbing his own character. I'm truly sorry dear. I know it's been hard on you.

I'm really sorry.

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